I would have,
could have,
lived my life,
in peace.
Only when I,
met you,
did I fall,
off track.
But maybe,
that was,
good.
No it couldn't be.
It has brought,
me here,
without you,
without love,
only with pain.
Why did you leave?
Please answer me!
I love you.
I need you.
You and
only you.
This is what
I longed you to say.
Instead,
you threw phrases like,
you're not good enough.
You're to weak for this.
I will never
be your's.
Why? is one
question I have.
Another is, How?
How can you say
these things
when you know they hurt me?
Yet more questions
flow as the space
between us is
ever growing bigger.
Please all I want
are answers.
This morning
I was woken by the birds' song
sweet and soft.
I rolled over in my bed
pulled my curtain back
and bathed in the
soft morning light of the world.
The sun was bright
casting small beautiful shadows
as it peaked past little green leaves
to the ground.
My cat did a dance
as it chased a bug too small to see.
I would have been inspired,
but then I realized
that it is Saturday and 6:00.
The world can wait another three hours!
The Trouble with Potential by AndromedaRenee, literature
Literature
The Trouble with Potential
The brush
my brush
sits idle,
but even sitting there
it has potential.
The potential to
fall in the hand of the
perfect person and create
a masterpiece.
The pen
my pen
sits idle,
yet it has the
potential to write,
in the hands of the
perfect person,
the next best seller.
All this potential
just waiting
and waiting.
Waiting for that hand
that will use it to
paint the masterpiece
or write the best seller.
I used to think these things
waited for me,
but then I realized that
people have to find their
potential.
That it is not just there
like it is in a paint brush
or a pen.
A person must find and
push their po
Who is the special one?
Let me tell you.
The special one is
the one who won't
try to break down my walls,
but is invited in.
The person who knows
that when you come
and put your arms around
my waist that you should
also turn my head and kiss me.
The person who knows that
when I am mad
the best thing to do is
nothing.
Yeah,
that is what my special person
will be.
So now all I have to do is find them.
What's inside of me?
If you asked, who lives in your heart?
I would tell you, everyone.
If you asked, who holds your heart?
I would tell you, my true friends.
If you asked, what does your heart beat to do?
I would tell you, it beats to write.
If you asked, what breaks your heat?
I would tell you, a suffering soul.
And if you asked, what makes your heart skip a beat?
I would tell you, you.
You make my heart skip a beat.
The Beautiful Fairies by AndromedaRenee, literature
Literature
The Beautiful Fairies
The sun filter through the trees
dappling my skin in uneven light.
Playing on the grass and flowers
like woodland fairies
reaching for my hand
asking my to play along.
I wish I could play
with the sun fairies.
Wings made of golden glow,
and feet like the breeze
ever carrying me away.
I could sing the song of the brook.
Falling and swirling the melody
around the rocks and current
that would be my fairy voice.
I would play and sing
by the light of day,
and disappear by the
moons cold glow
ever waiting for
the sun to bring me back to life.
But these are wishes
that live as wishes alone.
I cannot run away
from the world
Cracking Under the Pressure by AndromedaRenee, literature
Literature
Cracking Under the Pressure
The pressure
pushing down
on me,
on us all.
Pushing our
brains to the
limit.
Sometimes
over the
edge.
Pushing till
we think our
heads will
explode.
Rain down
ashes of
knowledge
and flames of
emotion
never to be
put back in
quite the right
place.
Sure the pieces
fit back
together,
but never the
same way.
Something,
if only one
thing,
is different
that is
enough
to change
everything.
Being Okay With Good-bye by AndromedaRenee, literature
Literature
Being Okay With Good-bye
My paddling isn't working
the darkness closes in.
Maybe if I die here.
I could start again.
If I let myself go
would I even be missed?
Who would mourn the death
of a mouse girl that no one
knew even exists?
Would they cry tears of pain,
or of joy at the world devoid,
of a girl drowning in pain?
I decide to let go
slipping beneath the sea.
Finally letting the darkness devour me.
As I sink in the dark, and try to let go
I keep wait for the rescue lights
I know will never show.
No one knows I'm gone,
and sadly no one will.
For I can't ever tell,
and no one ever will.
Plastic faces hide,
suffering souls,
struggling for,
a true life,
not the one of gold,
painted nothing,
they have now.
Woe fills every smile,
they paint on their face,
for the cameras,
that invade there,
shallow lives.
Is this anyway,
to live.
in fear of your own,
face on the front,
page.
I wouldn't want,
to live the life,
that lies behind,
that perfect,
plastic face.
I am essentially a poet, but sometimes I will write a short story, and I am constantly attempting to write a novel. Sadly it doesn't work very well thanks to my extremely short attention span. I am pretty much a geek I like to read, sing, play the flute, and obviously write. I get strait A's, but I am really not that smart. I am a band/theater/writing kid who happens to love looking at other peoples' art work. Yeah that is about it maybe I'll think of something that is actually interesting later.
An added note, I want people to comment on my writting. No matter if you hated it or loved. Do not be afraid to be brash, I will take noting personally. I just want to get people talking weather the talk be good or bad as long as you react to it. Any emotion is good even if is is outrage or disgust. So don't be scared if you don't like it, tell me. I want to know, and I will just read what you think and think about it myself. Thanks for taking this in to consideration.
Current Residence: The bed in my room Favourite genre of music: I listen to anything but I really like alternitive Favourite style of art: Well I know I could never do it, but sculptures have always fasinated me. MP3 player of choice: Ipod Favourite cartoon character: Easy! Bugs Bunny Personal Quote: I wanna change your "A" to an "E!"-Misha-...It's an inside joke.
Favourite Movies
As of now, How to Train Your Dragon
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
For now Christina Perri
Favourite Writers
Edgar Allen Poe, all the way
Favourite Games
Plants vs Zombies the most entertaining piontless game I have ever played.
Tools of the Trade
surface to write on, can range form paper to friends' arms and anything to write with like a pe
Other Interests
Singing and reading and marching band Gosh I am such a Geek, but I am a proud one!!!
The world is struck with grief. Apple CEO Steve Jobs (1955-2011) passed away today after a long battle with pancreatic cancer. Can we have a moment of silence and respect for the genius that stood by Apple at the corner of technology and creativity. Thank you Steve Jobs for all that you have given the world.
I have been so busy with homework ALL the time!!! Plus band which I am very happy with the girls in the flute line have been working really hard on the show and on working together as a team. When I talk about them I feel like a proud mama. Yeah that is my life for now school, band, homework, and pretty soon little theater will start and I will have to work the fall show! All in all I have been really busy but really happy. That is except for the food poisoning that is just finishing up damn hamburgers!!!
Oh and I was wondering if any of you out there would like to see some of my pictures. I was just wondering :) please comment!
I have been up at school all day most of it spent out in the 102 degree heat for band, but it is going well the freshmen aren't completely clueless. Then tonight I have to go up to school to get my books and get fitted for my uniform. AHHHHH! Sorry... now that that is over I can concentrate. Band is going great I love the music and the show, and I really am having fun. You know despite the heat and the sun burn. OUCH! Seriously I am red as a lobster. :/ Hopefully it will go away before the weekend though because I have to go to a family reunion with 134 members of my extended family I have never met. Well yeah I am going to try and take a nap